I didn't get to sleep till around 4Am , 1= because it was so windy and 2= I was texing Adz. Anyhoo I got up late and it was still windy..a good day to fly a kite hehe. The trouble is even if i had the energy to go fly a kite I could end up in Jersey or France as my weight is low at the moment and it doesn't take much to blow me over.
I was meant to be going out on my friend's motorbike( pillion) today but its too windy for that too and it would be hard work riding and keeping the bike from doing a sizzlesnake across the road.
So today will be sat at home listening to music and drinking tea, which is bliss to me. Also my kidneys have decided to give me a break today from pain so I'm like a " normal" nutter today.
To be honest I'm getting use to being in pain most days now with my kidney's and at times its hard to remember life before all this crap...and it is crap. My whole body sometimes feels its giving up on me, its a constant battle to keep from screaming out loud...STOP, I HAD ENOUGH! and although I'm a happy go lucky girlie i can sometimes hide away from the world and feel like that.
I'm pleased I have a understanding boyfriend. I don't have to explain why im quiet or not smiling if I have a bad day cos after all Adz has days like that as well. Although having cystic fibrosis really suck's at times, its made me a better person and i have determination to get on and do things in life just to say to my docs ...ner I did it!
Hopefully Adz will be going home from hospital soon, I miss him. I just hope he get's a break from it all as he's spent alot of time in hospital the last few weeks. The first month we were together he was in hospital. He makes me blissfully happy its daft. Wer hope to go skiing soon, which will be soooo funny as I can't ski and will end up most of the time on my bum. Motorbikes I can handle..ski's is another thing and abit dodgy. One thing's for sure if all else fail's I know I'm dam good at snowball fights!!!!!!
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